I’ve done enough worrying about this young man
& it’s time I think about me (THATS RIGHT)
If he wanted me , he would have told me already.
No time to waste , no time for games .
We can be friends tho , I still value him in some sort..
I think I love you.
I haven’t fallen in love with you
but I think I really do love you
There’s no way you could make me feel so emotional If I didn’t
But i feel like you like someone else
or maybe I’ll just never be good enough for you
or maybe you know that you love me too
but you think its too early to to open up your heart to this earth shattering love that we could have.
but I’m not afraid to open up.
I’m not afraid to be hurt by you
As many times as you may hurt me , there are 20 more times where you’ll make me smile
I’m not afraid to say you make me jealous, & I’m selfish with you.
I dont want anyone else to have you.
I want you, I wanna to be completely enamored in you & your being.
I want to make sweet body convulsing love to you.
I want to be open to many things I haven’t tried before.
I want you to love me with a fiery passion.
but I’m afraid you won’t.
& my dear , my heart will not wait forever.
I wont force you into anything It;s your choice.
but I will move on.
& be happy.
I didn’t appreciate you and i’m sorry.
You went and got a girl that did & too be 100 I was jealous.
I wanted to do everything in my power to break you up.
But i didn’t because I wanted you to be happy.
I honestly thought we could be friends but when I tried you pushed me away.
I now understand & heard the words from your mouth.
You can’t be friends with someone you’re in love with and that’s cool.
I’m here for you when you need me.
This young man only texts or calls me at least once every two weeks- a month. But every time his number pops up my heart flutters little bit.
He’s no good for me but that’s probably because I know he could break my heart into a thousand itty bitty pieces and just walk away.
He’s not my boyfriend but I miss him so much.
I know one of the reason is because I really want to have sex with him but it’s beside that fact.
He was in Cali and I kinda felt like my heart was breakin cause I thought he was gone forever even though he’s coming back today.
I really hope we can make something out of this situationship or just stop playing games cause it’s getting prettyyyyy old.
You know, when you have kids and you love them and you’re proud of them you just want to kiss them on the mouth sometimes.
GOD I LOVE YOU. here’s the video.
can’t imagine having a better dad than Will Smith
I like the later part of the video too, in regards to Jaden skateboarding in the house.
“Yeah, I’m trying to do the new fangled parent thing, to let them develop as an artist—but you better stop messin my floors up.”
<3
(Source: jessidays, via morganmoho)
I am scared to feel.
I am scared that you wont love me.
I am scared that I’m not good enough for you.
I am scared that the memories we scared will become nothing but the past.
I am scared that I may only want this to work & then when it does I wont want you anymore.
I am scared that you don’t even really want me.
I am scared that you’ll never introduce to you fam, just the homies.
I am scared that you will get tired of me and say “I really care about you but…”
I am scared that you think I’m too emotional.
But I am not scared to say that I want you.
Or that the warmth you give me is exhilarating.
Or I think I love you.
or that I’m crying now as I type this.
I am not scared to let you know it makes me mad when you talk to other girls because I feel like you can be easily stolen from me because you’re not mine.
To say I think I want to be with you.
I am not scared to the only reason I say, do, and tweet things to make you mad is just to see if you really care.
I am not scared to say that I love me some you
I am not scared to say that I shed tears of joy from how good our sex was.
I am not scared to say that you make me sad when you don’t text me good morning or good night,
I am not scared to say I’ve cried endless nights over you.
That it pissed me off when you got on a plane millions of miles in the air and didn’t text me to let you know you were safe.
But if i told you all this I feel like you would head for the hills.
So I’m not scared to say it , I just won’t say it to you.
